At least one last time before saying goodbye. FOR EVER! To be honest, I am definitely not the biggest fan of last year. It was a shitty year from day 1. I'm so glad it's finally over, amen. The thing with 2019 is: I hated it but at the same time, it wasn't the worst you know. I traveled, I spent time with my family, I moved back to London and yet, there's something missing, there's something that doesn't feel right, you feel me?
I started 2019 with quite a high dose of alcohol in my veins. Sorry, that needed to be said. It was in Montreal back to the time I was still living in Canada. Probably the best period of my life so far. Anyway. The thing is, January was probablement the worst month because I had to leave and that was such a pain to say goodbye to the place I was feeling at home. Between leaving Canada and being held against my will at the US border, that wasn't an amazing beginning. Leaving my apartment was also so hard, I remember crying my life out when I had to give the key back. Even now, just talking about it makes me so emotional. Moving back to Belgium was so hard but I was also excited to see my family after such a long time. Especially my granny. I spent 14 months in Canada and that was the longest time of my life without seeing her. Really difficult. Anyway. I came back at the very beginning of February (I flew from Montreal on the 31 Jan. at night) and the first thing I did was to book a trip to Barcelona with my sister. That was actually her idea, she is definitely the best.
After that, I was at a certain point in my life where I didn't know what to do. Should I go back to studies? What kind of job am I good at? Am I, at least, going to find a job? I wouldn't say that I was depressed but I was feeling so low and every day was a pain. I remember one night, being in my bed, crying because I was so lost, I was feeling angry and so annoyed. But it doesn't last you know.
The second part of 2019 was much more exciting. In June, I finally found a job and I moved back to London, yay. I was almost living for it. I really love my family and honestly it kills me to be far from them but I'm so incompatible with Belgium. That's a fact. Let's go back to what's interesting here. London, I'm back. It was so good to feel more complete in a place I loved as much as London. It was like a revival. I had the chance to find an amazing house sharing, seriously, my housemates are such genuine people. I went on holiday with my family. I booked a trip to Dublin. I finally was able to have a more stable life. I turned 28 in November. That was good to have my mom and my dad in London, even if I already said that in a previous article. After that, it was my turn to go back to Belgium for a few days. This made me realize a lot of things by the way. A lot of things are going to chance this year. Also, 2019 ended with my grand mother checking in at the hospital (she is ok now, in case you're wondering).
In the overall, 2019 was definitely not the most amazing year of my life. But I still have faith for 2020. I hope last year was better for you than it was for me. Now it's finally over, I can leave everything behind and move on. It's time for amazing things.
In the overall, 2019 was definitely not the most amazing year of my life. But I still have faith for 2020. I hope last year was better for you than it was for me. Now it's finally over, I can leave everything behind and move on. It's time for amazing things.
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